There's been a few changes going on behind the scenes over the last couple of months. I've been trying to juggle lots... not being great at that I've managed to let a few things fall to the way-side.
I've had to reevaluate, accept some stuff and make some tough decisions.
My family, my health and my business are all extremely important to me and all of them have had to take a back-seat on this rollercoaster of life I’ve been trying to navigate for some time. No one has really known where they stand on my list of priorities, including me!
I know now that when I initially took on my first tiny shop it was so that I had something other than my poorly sister to focus on, something positive. In hindsight I think maybe it was a silly thing to do, I couldn’t give it all of my attention. For the first two years it was actually almost impossible to really concentrate on anything but Emma, her progress, her decline, her appointments, her death…. so my little business was a welcome distraction at times.
Fast forward five years, the small shop is now a big shop. The small worries are now big worries. The small bills are now big bills….
Being so up and down both emotionally and physically meant that when I created The Wedding Hub I actually didn’t start off very well! I had no business plan, no targets, no goals, no clear vision for the direction I wanted to take. I just saw an opportunity to move all of my stuff to a shopfront and took it without much consideration at all…. I’m known to make impulsive decisions on the spot and think about it much later when the dust settles! Same thing happened when the second shop-space came about and then again when the 3rd one did...I get excited easily and let that guide me! This method doesn’t aways end well, it’s been known to land me right in the shit before! Thankfully not too often though!
So, I find myself in a place where the dust is well and truly starting to settle and the reality of my choices made in excitement and sometimes denial are now coming to the surface. I’ve had to stand back, take a good look at what is and isn’t working for me and my business. It’s never nice or easy to realise that you’ve made poor decisions and mistakes that could have been avoided. I’ve not been thinking clearly for ages, my head has been a foggy fuck-up and my vision well and truly clouded. I suffer massively with anxiety, it physically pains me. I worry about everything and nothing all at the same time, which doesn’t make life very enjoyable. I’m still not very kind to myself but I’m working on it… which has been one of the biggest reasons and helping factors in making my decision to reevaluate my work. I need to be nicer to me. If I look after myself better, I can look after those I love better. If I’m happier, they’re happier. It’s not rocket science after all….
I had considered closing my business completely but having to say goodbye to something else that I love really isn’t something I want to do. So, instead I’m scaling things down. I’m focusing on the parts of my business that make me happy and that are working. I LOVE to design, create and make so the stationery and styling elements are staying as are the suits from The Vintage Suite Hire Co because frankly the lads are easy to please and fun to work with. Our selection of Rock the Frock dresses are now all in the sale so once they’re gone they’re gone. If you want to grab a bargain get booked in. I’ve also got lots of little bits and pieces in the shop that need to go because I no longer have space for them. I’ll be listing them over on my Facebook page.
Due to the fact I have decluttered I now have a large space to fill!
Let me tell you the big plan…. Jenny South Photography is moving in to No 63 Hyde Park Road with me.
We will both continue to run our own individual businesses and we will also be teaming up together to offer something new and exciting, more details to follow on this!
There’s sure to be a welcoming party for my new shop buddy so keep your eyes peeled for that info!
For now though, I guess I just want to say that it’s ok to change you mind, it’s ok to not get it right the first (or 2nd or 3rd…) time because life doesn’t come with a rule book. There’s no easy path to success, there’s no magic formula to get you from A to Z. It’s up to you how you get there and what it looks like. If you don’t like the way things are then change them, because life’s too short to just settle for settling's sake….